Doing everything twice….is it a mania or a habit
Hmmmmm………not again! You gone mad or what?
Why do you want to do that again?
What on earth entices you to take that task again?
Why do you want to burn your hands again?
I have never seen such a loser, who goes time and again and gets run-over by the same phenomena?
Guys who know me personally, won’t take much time to realize that these are the most repeated questions asked to ‘me’ – many a situation.
This rant officially is to vent out an answer for people who get surprised as to why I take up things again and again and won’t mind doing it ‘again’ 
I think it started as a kid, maybe the fascination to pick the things which I like. I vaguely remember me being so picky and choosy about every thing I used to own/use. Starting from the slate pencil, I used to create hell if the slate pencil is used by someone or it was broke by some one else. Believe me, all the instances when I break it up – I can stay as calm as a mountain.
The movies I like, again, I watch few movies again and again and again. Give me any of these movies – Saagara Sangamam, Amrutha, Geethanjali, Yuva, Schindler’s list, Shankaraabharanam, Iruvar, Sakhi. I won’t bother you for eternity, probably thats a wildly exaggerated word – I would say atleast until you bother me, I won’t be bothering you.
The music I hear. In many cases, I pick and listen to quite a few songs from whoever it is – figuratively speaking, its all about the sound that strikes my ear for the first time. I don’t know how, but I kind of trust my ear to give me the best effect when I hear any bit of music for the first time. The moment, I come for a decision, end of the headache for me. I am in for that song if I like it, or it just goes out of my hard drive or ipod forever. Actually music recommendations work very less with me, coz, I haven’t found an intelligent system or a human brain that can give music according to my taste.
The places I go. Its not a joke that I have visited many places again and again with different set of people at different instances of time. There were cases of going to the same place in the same month and it hasn’t stopped in this alien country as well. I am sure, I would see every lovely place atleast twice before I leave this country. Its not a case of mystery when I read myself as to why I do this.
The answer lies in my behavior and my tendency to find something new and update the memories and know more and more about everything I see. Its this stupid mind that processes and tries to find something new and better everytime I take up the same task again. I was never let down by my body nor the mind in every attempt I have done till now. Though its not surprising to me by not getting bored of doing it again and again. Its just a case of ‘beechase’ or ‘Chandu’. I am better like this and this quality shouldn’t go, atleast my hope is to keep this one going on.
For many, and including the great thinkers and explorers – I can bank on they condemning this idea of mine of limiting myself to set of places or set of choices. Its just a case of curiosity that drives them to go and taste everything and anything under the Sun. In my case its the curiosity and thirst of few things that I like. It boils down to the innate ability of a human mind that categorizes and opinionates everything into two categories – like or dislike. Unfortunately, with the given limitations on Patience I have, I think I CANNOT tolerate the ‘dislike’ category for whatever reasons – good or bad, it doesn’t matter for me.
Wow, this was a nice relief from the typical taggin, serious thoughts and probably a very good space filler. Now, I should safely realize that Blogging perhaps is a best way to release your mind, when you have nobody to talk to. Not that you ‘don’t’ have …but you choose to talk to yourself instead 
Happy time!!
I am sure people/friends around must have figured this out by now
and as the saying goes
“People who mind dont matter and people who matter dont mind”
I guess some people like exploring more and many things in their lifetime and some are content with exploring more within a few things..
I for that matter am in the first category- more and many..
Thanks for the comment. I agree to the views expressed by you(Sangeeta).
As I ranted, the behavior I exhibit at one of the many situations is probably – ‘characteristic’ of the ‘me’.
I sometimes feel bad, as to why I won’t go for something new – the answer lies in the same thing, Whether I like it or dislike it. Its a case of having good experiences.
I should probably have a little more patience in judging and arriving at a conclusion.
But, again – I might do it again and again and probably again. Coz, I liked it
Well, rejoice that you know what you want precisely. It is a rare gift. It also shows that you are content with a few things.
Definitely Yes!
hmm…..I cant say anything…as i myself, will get lost in not doing things twice but n number of times……YUVA movie i have seen umpteen number of times yet when frnds catchup i ll pick the same again….I think its linked to the behavior pattern of the brain, once u get comfortable towards anything or anybody, u tend to appreciate it and start feeling bliss in knowing and knowing more….its the initial opening up with the music which register the entry in the brain..but the problem is we tend to loose a lot other arts which don’t open up in the initial stage…..not knowing a song, knowing and not liking or liking it are 2 different things…..so we must first know it well inorder to like or dislike……i am attempting to change in this regard, as not closing up with anything with initial impressions…a classic example for me is coldplay, i just downloaded to my ipod and started listening it without any prior knowledge abt the artist, genre etc etc…naturally i couldnt connect with it but i thought i need to know more abt it….i forced myself to listen for abt 5-10 times initially, then left it…after some days, it striked with me and then im feeling a strange liking to the songs which i really dont know…..i searched my ipod completely to find out the tunes, after a rigorous search i found it to be coldplay, its then i became addicted to them…no i love all the songs……….
PS: song/music i have stated here is just an example out of my experience, it could relate to any thing
Completely agree boss!
When I meant twice….it is the minimum number of times
Often the ones you start out of your gut feeling – become your profession, life, or career, or a hobby….this is the pattern of my life, or you can say many of the people I see all around.
I never feel bad about that – coz, that is definition of ‘me’. I know that I’m good and so are you mate!
Glad that you have stopped by to read my previous blogs
Take care!