Whatever it takes!

A Dream can be defined as a state of mind characterized by ‘abstraction’ and release from ‘reality’.  Its a phenomenon by which you overcome your fears and limitations and inhibitions and start a journey in your fantasy world – filled with angels, demons, numbers, gadgets, illusions, sweets, books, blogs, photographs …there are innumerable items that can be brought into this.  One thing for sure, its not limited.  Also, It should probably never be.

Often, these are the reasons you want to live and survive and see the next morning sun blazing on your head, so that you can dream again and be like a child waiting for the gift you always wanted to have.  The burden of expectations actually pulls you down and in most of the cases, kills your enthusiasm and puts you down in a state where you forget that ability you have, to ‘dream’.  Its a sad irony that, we have the spirit and attitude to overcome this fear, but still we don’t do that – Why? have you asked this question to yourself before…well, then there would be a reason which you tend to agree, more or less, other than just living with that, atleast I did and realized this could be the reason…the reason of becoming more materialistic and hence getting involved with anything and everything and start living for things which you didn’t plan for or you didn’t want to…maybe.

The one and the only thing that makes life interesting and exciting to me is, to do things what you always wanted to do.  There are few things, where you need a fair amount of support and encouragement from the outside world, to help you realize that you are part of this world, to keep that thread of relation alive, to me, this is what motivates you to keep going and realize your dreams.  It is no wonder that often you find some homo-sapien doing this activity for you – for ‘more-fortunate’ people, there is a good reason why you have to depend on yourself everytime.  Its not a pitiable condition, nor a condition which demands some sympathy, its just placing up your own beautiful mind over matter, realizing things that are trivial as ‘less trivial’, and perhaps still lesser.  Nothing is beyond this thought – fortunately for any soul on this planet.  Isn’t it?

Let me take you to the point, about the whole ordeal of reading 3 paragraphs of worthless soul-searching talk, that I involved you till now – Its just a case of braggin about things..didn’t you realize?.  Quite a few know my levels of ego and the talk I do, so its understandable . ‘I’, as in ‘me’, probably wouldn’t have achieved what I have done, if I didn’t believe in what I could do – this is the bottomline of this whole rant.  There are ocassionally certain things that make me feel happy and also make me excited about (quite honestly, there are many things that excite me every now and then, but there are only few things that are planned – its called coincidence in my vocabulary).

I have recently taken a jump from an altitude of 13500 feet above Ground level from the skies of Arizona.  I had the best time of my life during the free fall that lasted for about less than a minute, touching the maximum speed that my body ever felt in itself..it was freaking 192 kmph – i.e. 120 miles per hour!!  It is the feeling, that anybody can be absolutely thrilled to have, as it can be best only experienced.  I cannot remember how I prepared myself for this one, nor can I remember the time I was falling down. I agree to the fact, that I ‘used-to’ have a fear for heights and its worse when I see H2O around, now nothing else matters..atleast without water…I have conquered the fear with a single jump and left my negative energies and things that were pulling me down, maybe forever and for the good reasons. This jump fortunately took me to the world which I feel strongly, now that I have my map maker draw my boundaries and have him certify that I have conquered it.  Its a clear case of mind winning over matter.

I remembered black skies, The lightning all around me
I remembered each flash, As time began to blur
Like a startling sign, That fate had finally found me

And your voice was all I heard..That I get what I deserve

So give me reason, To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean, Let the thoughts cross
The distance in your eyes, Give me reason
To fill this hole, Connect the space between
Let it fill up to reach the truth and lies
Across this new divide…

I have nothing to say after these lines….it pretty much sums up the feeling!

Its an immense feeling that I am in right now. I always knew that I have to fight my own battles,  and I either win or lose my own battles in the process of fighting.

Now, the interesting thing is probably, the world which you have limited to and its relation with the original world.  The conquest has not ended, as I realize it now, my smaller world is demanding to grow. It’s a case of irony that in these circumstances, we often tend to forget our own abilities and get attached to people, thinking that they do fight for us or they might be behind us all the while…It’s always the case of fighting your own battles, as I realized earlier. Don’t get attached to people, in many cases they are not worthy, and in some cases they are more than worthy.  In the end, it is you who always get hurt when you get attached to those (10)2 different kinds of people –  You end up repenting later, as to why did I do this to the person I cared for, or, why didn’t I shut myself to this lesser mortal as that person doesn’t deserve any level of respect.  I sign off with my thought, ‘Attachments contain viruses, so dont get attached!‘

I think there is a lot of truth in that statement, its better to stay away from people, instead of getting hurt repeatedly and abusing yourself and your mind.  Its a safe way, but still you are gonna get returns.  Trust me, I am seeing that actually.

As I sit and recollect my thoughts, I only believe that things have gone nice and fantastic, as I only can bank on me now and me alone, I need not credit anybody and debit anybody, I fight my own battle and I will win my battles.  Its an extreme case of ego fellas! I am experiencing the sweetness of it.  I don’t care if its not satiated, but if it hurts, I retaliate

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