What – Why – When – Who

I am doubting myself for actually blogging back to back. Its tough and also, at the same time fun. Otherwise, why would i do it. Well, the doubts its the change, I am hating and trying to overcome. A thing which I am hating myself for, these days, I am doubting a lot, rather than believing.

 

First things first, The summer has started and with that it got all the possible time on earth for me to do take care of myself and hence also there is a necessity for me to plan it out and not take things for granted. Not to mention the amount of sweat its taking out, and reminding me of the efforts I am putting, or rather, not putting

 

Its a roller coaster ride till now, US has taught me to be more picky about people, more casual about human relations, more funnier about life apart from many other things/stuff(US lingo). Few of the things I like and most of them I dislike – yeah, I am opinionated, if you cannot stand it – Go and suit yourself!.

 

I am utilizing my human intelligence to decide the things I like and dislike – FYI. So, the process of idling away is lost, atleast hopefully since I have no deadlines and peers looking on my shoulder, as to what my next step would be. In this idiotic phase, I started doubting my beliefs and worst was yet to come, I even started believing my doubts, particularly so, as I was struggling(I hate myself for using this word) to make things meet and work in my favor.

 

Now, as I see at a safe distance away from that traumatic life, pathetic life, yeah please help me find the best words possible for this stupid thing that took over ‘beechase’(Well, I would like to call myself like that), I can only guffaw ..choking….hahahahahahaha.

 

So, what is the best thing to do to get back to your normal self – Quite a few suggestions came in. Best thing was, start identifying the things you love to do and work for them. Aah! ailaa…how did this not strike me until I was to be reminded of these things by someone else. Well, I managed to get my smiles back again, withing the short time of enlightenment – I managed quite a few things, they include

 

… reading books, reading about technology, following news, listening to fresh music, watching movies and all these again and again – well This is WHAT I WANTED, amazing but true. I started liking it again! …

 

Now, the icing would be to get back to fiddling away my Saturdays and Sundays with a bit of brush, or the bow of the violin. I cant wait till that happens. Not to mention to share it with you everyday Its fun for me, hope that its the same to you too!

 

Lets evaluate this blog after 3 months say, roughly around August 2nd Week, 2009. I hope I achieve atleast half of the things that are on the plate as usual – being the sickest procrastinator and the worst prioritizer of activities – and letting people run over me, and overriding my interests – I think I have miles to go. Its strange but true. Life always runs and leaves you little time to stand and stare, but by enjoying your moments, you LIVE it to the fullest. There in lies a reason for you to love your life like nobody does(well its an overstatement – but who cares).

 

Come what may, I have decided to fill it up this way.

 

PS: I have decided to use a new language a day for the good bye, now its Swedish fellas. Welcome change ain’t it.

Hej då!