Things to do…

I woke up early on a Sunday, not knowing what to do. Not a common thing for me. I am talking about the later part of the sentence.

I started thinking, as what I’ve been doing of late. It was simple process for me who is gifted with a worst possible gift – human beings can ever think of. Memories. It is cynical of me, to wind it up by saying, that all I need to worry about the day, the constituents of the cocktail of life, the people around me. I stopped living, haven’t I? Not a common thing for me again.

I realized the mode I got into. I stopped finding my way out of this nonsense, and instead to make matters worse, I started getting deeper and deeper into it. Reason, I lost my inner voice. I lost the purpose of living happily, and my pursuit in making my friends happy. I got into a situation, to be reminded by someone else – that my life SUCKS! It’s tough but life gives you such wake up calls once in a while. This is what I got up for on a lazy Sunday morning, I realized. At that instance. Pretty common thing.

The pursuit of happyness, starts in every one’s life at some point of time. At that moment, it will be deafening silence – where you feel…YES, I screwed it up, and I need to do something better. Then you start searching for a company to explain your case, and think with them – as to what went wrong. It is never an easy thing to do, trust me! Especially if you have critics all around, who survive on other’s mistakes and fallacies. On the contrary, there would be someone who would want to listen to you and give you a blatant truth or a lie which either shocks you or eases you out. Depending on the kind of person you are, you pick one and go ahead following the route that the suggestion is. And there is nothing known as ‘failure’ in life, it’s always things working in your way or not. Isn’t it?

Every drop hitting the bath tub from a careless leftover tap, suggests you two things – the moments you are missing in life,  things that you want to do and the time that is being wasted frivolously as a rich lazy heir of a senile king does, or if you are not gifted with imagination …. a simple carelessness that is disturbing your sleep or some weird nonsense, I can’t imagine.

I realized this over that sound, and needless to say – I got what I wanted in that silence. I did what I should do, and I will do what I want to. Bottomline, if there no happyness in the end – it is useless to pursue that. Probably, I owe something to the great minds, who in their thoughts and words and deeds – give pearls of wisdom and ensure that we stumble upon them at least at some point in life. I stumbled, and I got hit and I now know for sure. The essence of what I am capable of, and what I should worry about. It starts with ‘me’ and should end with ‘me’. It’s not difficult to go this way either.

This is done in accordance to the laws of blogging, to vent what I feel about the moment. It is not directed to satisfy others, it is more of a mental note, or a task calendar or a page in the diary. That’s all and that’s it!

Peace.